4 months to go

Time literally flies in front of my eyes and without me even notice it.  It's like when i actually sit down by myself, I started to think less than 4 months time I will become someone's life long partner, having my status to be changed from Miss to Mrs, start to have plans of when to have our first and second child...

Reading so many blogs lately (from those also same as me to be bride), they have so much excitements with their big day, constantly updating what had been done or what's still have not been done.  To me, I felt like I just want my wedding day to be a happy memory, I look more foward to my life after the wedding rather than the wedding itself.  I did wonder am I just weird, while a bride should look fwd to their big day. 

Well, I know my husband to be is the best in my world, that's all I really care about.  The support and care and love that I can ever get, he gave it all to me.  I guess that's far more important how my wedding gown should look like, how pretty I should look or even what hair style i should use on my big day.  To have a person whom I believe mean the world to me, I cannot ask for more really.

Crazy week

Too much....

First Instinct....

People say everywoman is good at first instinct...
I never really thought about this issue...
Until recently...I think it's kind of right...
First instinct can be a good and bad thing...depends how you put it...
With recent instinct...I kind of start to dislike this ability...
This ability is capable to make me think a lot...
A lot to a point that it creates discomfort in my feelings...
A feeling that hard to describe...
Women or even human beings are so special in a way that it's kind of weird...
The curiosity of reading things....curiosity of wanting to know thing u already knew...
Crazy...the more you read and see, the more you feel your heart aches...
Is it becos the time was too close...too close that it aches???
I think if thinking clearly with my brain in my mind...
I know the consequence of reading it...
Stupid me...still go on reading it...
Women are just weird...Falling so deeply in love...but have so much to mind!!!
I guess th's just women in general...
Everyone has their past...and i guess when you love someone...you have to accept it all!!!
That's what we all call True Love!!!

Crazy in love.....

Just suddenly think back the time when I first met him...
Somone not so caught my attention...
A little hi and a little bye..
Thought of a little silly to have referrals by others.
Not something that I get normally, or even i can say I don't like these kind of action.
A common friend, i can so called
A call asking me to go on traveling...CRAZY...first reaction..
Why me??? Is it that he wants to know me more??? May be I thought too much...
I rejected, cos I was afraid...
Have not heard from him ever since that invitation...
Was it my rejection too strong, that had took him back a step...
Until 1/2 year later...met again not supposedly to have him there...
This time...he caught my eye...real close...so close that my heart was beating fast...
A feeling that never had before...so weird...but at the same time...I like this feeling...
Used an excuse to send him a msg saying Thank You...
Brought out my courage...even i know I was occupied at tht moment...
I knew I was wrong..but then this is wht ppl say "Feelings can never stop one in doing the things they wanted so badly!"
Used excuses once again to call him and ask him to help..
Main reason I want to see him again...
That's how it all started...long conversation...Got to know him more and more...
The more I got to know, the more I know I was falling for him...
So afraid to tell him that, cos he was not ready...
Then a B'day dinner...We talked and talked...like there's nothing between us...so naked...
A little kiss...told me that I want him...I want him to be mine...
Next day, we talked even more...when we were both busy...
Busy enough but still took time to see me...
An unhappy car journey...cos wanted to tell him how I really think...but too much in his and my mind..it stopped us...
The night came...Finally he asked me...I want him to be so sure...so sure that he wants this...And he does!!!
That's how it all started...
The story is simple but absolutley beautiful...
Now the story will keep on going...It's another stage of life...Looking foward..